“Barhana Rooh Aur Jism Bhi — Naked Soul and Body Too

برہنہ روح اورجسم بھی

(barhana is Urdu for naked)

During my college final project in filmmaking, my non-believer friend and teammate told me about her culture’s ritual to shave the pubes after every menstrual cycle. She guided my shaving to uncover for the first time — by visual and by touch — what I had under the bush. Oh! the freshly shaved vulva that’s hyper-sensitive and juicy.

Excited by a Reddit thread of women posting their nudies (2015), we two along with another woman friend started a circle of exchange – sharing our nudies and bodily insecurities, and complimenting each other’s visual skills (budding filmmakers!) and bodies. This, along with the thrill of stealing solo access to the bedroom I shared with my elder sibling until age 25 – watching my ‘barhana jism’ in the mirror or mobile camera and touching myself — gave me my first orgasms! The photo-sharing ritual stopped after a while, but being aroused by my own naked body and masturbating to its sight became a thing.

In 2018, when a long, rough patch of mental health had drained me (even my hands!) but when I had money for luxuries, I bought a vibrating dildo. The dildo helped with stellar, quick clitoral orgasms! I’ve had no steady romantic or sexual partners but thanks to discovering the love I can create with my body: I haven’t missed out on sexual pleasure <3″

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