“I was always a skinny girl. I have only put up weight after marriage. So, I was called all kinds of names in school – maachis-ki-tilli, chipkali, chuhiya and the one related to my breasts- LG Flatron (this is around year 2007-08, flatiron TVs had just hit the market). So, yeah – I think, it was during that time I grew conscious of my small breasts. My friends made fun of me, but I always laughed it off, always taking it in my stride. I never really felt bad (or, maybe I did, but didn’t want to accept it). I was aware of the ‘problems’ big breasts caused.
My elder sister had big boobs and she wasn’t allowed to wear jeans-
top because they showed off her curvy breasts. I, on the other hand, enjoyed all the ‘perks’ of having small boobs. No one would stare at me or grope me.
All through college (2009-13), I had small boobs. My college group (all boys, and just me) didn’t consider me a girl. I was a bro to them.
Not that I did not crush over boys! I did and many boys crushed over me, but I often heard them saying – she is cute, but she is not sexy!
But, I feel good that I never worried myself over my boob size or shape.
Though I would often feel irritated when my sister or my besties made fun of me when I told them I wear size 32B. They would laugh meanly and that would almost kill me. And I would also roll my eyes at the undies-shopvali aunty who would confirm twice before handing out the 32B bra to me.
So, yeah, I think I never worried about boob size till my boyfriend (now
husband) didn’t make a heroic entry into my life in 2014. I really liked him since college days and we had been putting it off for five years. So, this time when he came into my life, I wanted everything to be just perfect. LOVE.LUST. JUST EVERYTHING.
Thankfully, during the time I had started to put on weight. So, when we first got intimate, I was still wary of him seeing my boobs because I thought he wouldn’t like them. But, to my surprise, he said he LOVED them!
Even today, I often ask him if he really meant it that day or was just trying to please me.”