Trigger warning: sexual abuse
“I am a victim of sexual abuse within my family. Before my breasts could sprout nipples, they were fondled and sucked on. Before my breasts could be called breasts, they were sexualised. I reacted to this by wearing really tight sports bras while in school so that my breasts looks as inconspicuous as possible. I rejected anything that would make me feel ‘feminine’ in the most remote sense. It took me years to see myself as a sensual being and experience foreplay in a much different way.
The fear was replaced by trust by a partner. It felt different when he cupped my breasts compared to that time when my uncle did. I understood the difference between love and lust then. This helped me feel more positive about my body and you’re seeing a result of me exploring my body.”