“So here’s the thing! I’ve had large breasts since I can remember, I was wearing bras by the time I was in the 5th of or 6th. And I loved them, not the bras (then!), but my breasts. When my first lover, mimicked a scene from Friends and settled my breasts in my bra to achieve a plump cleavage and complimented my on how gorgeous it looked, I got all moist and remained so the whole night, like my thorth (towel)  put out to dry in sultry Kerala (if you haven’t been to Kerala- the thorth NEVER dries!). We had boob rest strategies, my busty friend and I. At night cramming for exams in the hostel, we’d take off our bras and sit with our chairs drawn tightly to our desks so that our breasts could rest on them. We are closing in on 40 now and this is still fodder for hooting laughter every time we meet.

Over the past few years though they’ve grown even more and are sagging. On some days I feel like my bras resemble helmets but finding ones that support my breasts well and make me feel hot and sexy is a rarity. They feel all squished and shapeless in sari blouses , and I stopped wearing saris for the longest while. To think saris were my chosen garment for seduction at one point in time!  I’ve worked my way around this now, blouses have been summarily dismissed and t-shirts, skivies, ganjis, now accompany saris. I admit, I’m not much of a show off any longer.

Recently a lover (almost dozen years younger), made a move to take my T-shirt off for the first time, I froze for a second. I had of course seen this coming and had my sexy as fuck bra on, but what if this wasn’t what he may have pictured. The extent of damage to my body image, my last long term relationship had done was all centered around my breasts for some reason. I took a deep breath and took my T-shirt off. We had a crazy evening and my nagging anxiety was put to rest with his text later at night, apparently I was gorgeous in that bra! I smiled with a tinge of nostalgia , recalling the plump birdies forming a cleavage in a regular boring bra about two decades ago. Yeah I miss them, but these work too.”

In the background they wanted the semal tree, I had to draw a bulbul too. ☺️

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